I don’t really like the question- Do you want the good news or the bad news first? But if forced to decide I would choose the GOOD first, so then I can pull that back up after hearing any BAD.
Anthony and I have been looking for new, bigger farm property for over a year and a half. We have found only a handful that fit within our beginning farmer budget and that would work into our dreams for the farm. We have an absolutely amazing realtor (Amanda Sway) whose professionalism and vivacious youthfulness make everything involved in hunting and purchasing a home enjoyable. Recently Anthony and I found a quaint house with a pond and over 30 acres. The couple who own this house have done an amazing job keeping everything in top working order. You can see the love in every aspect of their property.
Our family doesn’t do anything without prayer first, middle, and last. With Anthony gone so often, it is rare we get to physically pray together, but even with miles apart we stand united in our desires, hopes and dreams. We have prayed for a place with water, all of our children and myself are little fish, craving all things water! We want a place where I can once again have a flower garden, one that I won’t have to leave- no more having the Army tells us to go. A place we can finally put down deep roots and grow. For all the things we don’t care for about Nebraska (the lack of National Parks, lack of public property, its poor recycling habits, and lack of the Pacific Ocean) we ABSOLUTELY LOVE the people and our church.
The property we are praying for will not only have enough land for our farm operation, but also, the right layout so we can continue to mentor Veteran Farmers as well as begin a deep desire of ours, to work with the wonderful Hispanic population in this area. Last but not least, it will have an area where we can build a bathroom for our farm family! (I love being hospitable and opening our home to you and yours, but I would love to give you your own private farm bathroom). (heart).
We have spent over a month negotiating on this particular property. At first we were excited, then with three counters and two changes with new/different information we began to lose focus. There was one brief day were both Anthony and I even became ANGRY. (I don’t know anyone who likes to feel judged based on either their last name, or their supposed financial status, or any other number of things-satan is a master of planting doubt and stirring up dissension). Our hearts were heavy and we almost broke.
Then we remembered something, something BEAUTIFUL. Jesus promises us HOPE and a FUTURE (Jeremiah 29:11). He promises EXCEEDING BLESSINGS (Ephesians 3:20) and He promises to DIRECT our path (Proverbs 3:5-6). We also remembered that it didn’t matter what was going on behind closed doors, He-the CREATOR of this universe, the Alpha and Omega- He LOVES US with an everlasting LOVE (Jeremiah 31:3)….if we will put Him first and seek Him with ALL our hearts. So, we began to pray for the owners. We did not pray that they would sell the house to us. Instead we prayed EPHESIANS 1:16-19 for them.
Two weeks more have past, there are so many working pieces to moving our family and our farm that today we again became discouraged. We had worked out all details with this couple, gave in to all their demands, signed the final purchase agreement, and drove out of our way to bring the title company our earnest deposit and still they didn’t get back to us with their signatures. At Walmart today, I was at peace and full of joyful hope. While waiting for their signatures I had the chance to talk with Anthony and we both realized we don’t NEED to move, or NEED to move right now. Is the farm a bit, more than a bit, cramped- Yes, but can we manage, most definitely! So I just began praying out loud, running through all the scriptures I could bring to remembrance and then finally binding satan from meddling. We needed to know His plan for us. We had done everything in our physical power but there is so much more than the physical involved (Ephesians 6). So I ended my out-loud Walmart prayer with, “Lord make it be very clear if this is not for us. THANK YOU for being our rock and fortress (Psalm 18:1-3)”. Literally 35 minutes later Amanda called with what she thought was bad news. Oh, the joy in hearing that this couple was not going to sell to us.
Instead of focusing on the time and effort invested into this 45+ day process and all the negative back-and-forth, the first thing that came to mind was that either the timing is off or He has something even greater for us!!! The beautiful part is Jesus loves us and He loves them just as much. He is no respecter of persons (Romans 2:11, Acts 10:34). So….we will continue to wait with GREAT expectations (Psalm 5:3) and continue to grow our dream of serving more families. Thank you for dreaming with us! (heart).
I will bless the Lord at all times: his praise shall continually be in my mouth. My soul shall make her boast in the Lord: the humble shall hear thereof, and be glad. O magnify the Lord with me, and let us exalt his name together. I sought the Lord, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears. Psalm 34:1-4